I used to think gum could count as lunch. If I hadn’t “earned” real food. What even was that logic?
Food got weird. Clean eating, cheat meals, guilt-free whatever. It all got into my head. But I wasn’t hungry for rules. I was just hungry.
It hit me in therapy. Why was I explaining my lunch to a damn journal? “Just one slice.” “Used less butter.” Who was I trying to impress?
There was this one time I skipped breakfast because I’d slept in and thought, well, now I’ve ruined it. Like eating after 10am made me a failure. Ended up dizzy at work, black coffee in hand, hoping it could hush the hunger. Didn’t even realize how far I’d gone until halfway through the day, and nothing had touched my stomach.
Now? I eat. Sometimes it’s fries. Sometimes it’s soup. Sometimes it’s both. I don’t audit it. I don’t measure it. I just eat. I sit. I move on.
I’ve learned to listen for actual hunger instead of guilt. And that’s not easy when your brain’s spent years tying food to behavior. Good days meant good food. Bad days meant restriction. Breaking that loop felt like unlearning a second language.
Food doesn’t need a backstory.
You don’t need to justify being hungry. You’re alive. That’s reason enough.





